I'm sorry. You deserve much better than that. [It's an extreme understatement as he can't properly portray how he actually feels over text about that.]
I mean, both times were city bullshit. People not in their right minds. You're also not the only person on the boat who pulled that shit with me. Just the only one I didn't know pre-boat.
[Also, the only one where she hadn't already started shit. That mist had her picking fights with men twice her size.]
[It takes her a minute to come up with something that doesn't lay more guilt on him -- not because she doesn't think he deserves it, but because she doesn't want to get into the habit of looking unreasonable about city bullshit -- and also isn't a lie.]
I think we're all gonna be untangling threads we spun on that boat for awhile.
I don't regret it. It was shitty, but we learned a lot. We know what to prepare for if we wanted to try again.
[Orla hasn't heard a lot of people agreeing with that sentiment, that trying again might be worth it, but she continues to believe it. It's probably that stubborn, slightly crazy streak that stresses her wife out so much. But she believes it. Maybe once everyone's had more time to cool down.]
Maybe that's a flaw I have. You give me the choice between landing in one place and a chance, even in horrible circumstances, to get on a ship and go, I'll go every time.
Sometimes, yes. I'm pretty good at it, most of the time. It's a skill I've had to develop in my life back home, but this place is so everything happening all the time I can imagine it would be hard to really develop it here.
[There's a pause while she thinks about it for a minute.]
Being fucked with isn't the same as being injured. Being injured isn't the same as being dominated. Being dominated isn't the same as being subjugated. Don't let them become each other.
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[Also, the only one where she hadn't already started shit. That mist had her picking fights with men twice her size.]
[It takes her a minute to come up with something that doesn't lay more guilt on him -- not because she doesn't think he deserves it, but because she doesn't want to get into the habit of looking unreasonable about city bullshit -- and also isn't a lie.]
I think we're all gonna be untangling threads we spun on that boat for awhile.
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I don't regret it. It was shitty, but we learned a lot. We know what to prepare for if we wanted to try again.
[Orla hasn't heard a lot of people agreeing with that sentiment, that trying again might be worth it, but she continues to believe it. It's probably that stubborn, slightly crazy streak that stresses her wife out so much. But she believes it. Maybe once everyone's had more time to cool down.]
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It speaks well of you, that you feel that way.
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Being fucked with isn't the same as being injured. Being injured isn't the same as being dominated. Being dominated isn't the same as being subjugated. Don't let them become each other.
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